Full Moon Rituals
I’ve been doing Full Moon releasing rituals for the last 7 months. Sitting there writing my list of everyone I want to forgive and what I want to let go of. Then burning my list. And letting go. In my head I thought yep I have let that go. However, the last few months right before the new moon I have started to feel what I can only describe as wobbly. I am ultra-sensitive. I don’t feel like being sociable. I want to be by myself. I cry easily.
Today I had a lightbulb moment. I wanted to go to a Mind, Body and Soul Fair. But since Friday I have been feeling wobbly. Was it because I’m ovulating? Was it because I’m still waiting for my divorce to come through? It didn’t feel like a stress thing. I just felt fragile and wanted to cry. I went to the library with my friends and kids. One of my very close friends spoke to me about a couple of issues that she was worried about on my behalf. I broke down in the library. She apologised for making me cry. It was all ready to come out anyway. The timing just sucked. And it was raining outside so I couldn’t wear my sunglasses to disguise my red eyes. I went shopping afterwards in the hope it might make me feel better. It did a bit. I went into Mango and bought a beautiful top.
For the rest of the day I felt wobbly but I got through it. What was going on? The next day I felt OK. On Sunday I dropped my kids off at their dads, went home, crept into bed and cried and cried. I cried for about an hour. What’s wrong with me? I then had my eureka moment. I was releasing. I had written down my releasing stuff at the full moon, BUT it was only now I was actually physically and emotionally releasing. After my cry I felt fresh and renewed. I realised that the work I am doing on myself does actually mean I have to release my emotions and allow myself to cry.
Twice this week I have heard the word Surrender. And that’s what I am currently doing, surrendering and allowing the process to work. Through releasing we are making space for greater things to come in.